Currently Reading Something's Wrong with Your Scale! : A Romantic Comedy By Van Whitfield see related

JOURNAL #134

[:mood:]

Ugh..life.  How things change so quickly.  Freakin sucks rat's buttocks.  I mean it's so hard to like a guy in high school.  The maturity levels are like negatives.  And then you like someone who's not even in the same state (ehh...)  I mean 5 more months of this crap and I'm out.  Damn..Prom ugh yeah.  I'll go with friends, but come on.  I'm good enough to flirt with but not good enough to date? Yeah..Makes me feel so good.  My confidence soars.  I mean sluts and crap get guys..even though you know it's for the...( )..But good people get S to the HIT.  How will it be in college.  Another 4 years of misery.  Fun..Whatever.  I mean Hell yah I'm looking..just not being looked at I guess.

On a "lighter" note.  I got a composite score of 25 on my ACT..Good job me!  I seriously hope I get into UTD.  If I don't..Eh..Don't want to think about it.

And I'm not freaking gay!!!  Just cause I don't dress like a slut..(random thoughts..not saying anyone called me that, but it seems like Westside is the gay school.  And if you don't dress "hott" you're gay.  Tight clothes and all that junk.  I'm not a "stud" or a "lesbo" or "bi" or whatever the hell you want to call them..I'm straight jeeze.)  Maybe guys are scared of me?  Jesus...how horrible.

(Actually myspace sucks cause there's always somethin wrong with it.  And all I do is add people and look at pages..no blogs.)

"How can you say you're the missing piece when you're bigger than the whole puzzle?"

Currently Reading The Year Of Secret Assignments (Booklist Editor's Choice. Books for Youth (Awards)) By Jaclyn Moriarty see related

i GRADUATE iN 5 MONTHS!!!! WOOT (O6 BABAY!!!)

i'M SO STiCKTOiTiVE

Currently Reading Head Games By Mariah Fredericks see related

JOURNAL #133

[:MOOD:] :WHATEVA:

   PART ONE: THE CONFRONTATiON 

     "CYNTHiA?  TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG . . ."  XANGA SAYS PULLiNG ME CLOSER.

     "NOTHiNG XANGA.  NOTHiNG YOU'D UNDERSTAND.  iT'S BEEN TOO LONG."  i REPLY, STEPPiNG AWAY.

     "THERE'S SOMETHiNG.  i KNOW!  TELL ME.  ARE...YOU...CHEATiNG...?"  XANGA ASKS, HORRiFiED.  BUT ALSO KNOWiNG THE ANSWER.

     "YES, XANGA.  OKAY, YES!"  i SCREAM.  "THEY GiVE ME SOMETHiNG YOU CAN'T GiVE ME.  THEY GiVE ME VARiETY.  i CAN SEE NEW PEOPLE, NOT JUST LOOK AT NAMES."

     "BUT CYNTHiA..iF YOU JUST GiVE ME A CHANCE..i'M SURE i CAN CHANGE FOR YOU."  XANGA CRiES.

     "NO, YOU CAN'T.  AFTER HOW MANY YEARS..."  COUNTS ON MY FiNGERS.  "YOU STiLL CAN'T PLEASE ME THE WAY...TAGWORLD AND MYSPACE CAN.  DON'T GET ME WRONG, i WiLL STiLL BE WiTH YOU, BUT NOT THAT OFTEN..."  i CONTiNUE, WALKiNG OUT THE DOOR.

XANGA...SOME THiNGS...ARE NOT MEANT TO BE...

TUNE iN NEXT TiME FOR PART TWO OF BLOGS, SECRETS, AND LIES

Currently Reading Frankenstein : A Kaplan SAT Score-Raising Classic (Kaplan Score Raising Classics) By Mary Shelley see related

JOURNAL #132

[:mood:]

I have a phone!!!! yaya awesomeness.  After 17 years!!!  My parents are feeling a bit generous all of a sudden lol.  Well, I'm watching the Making of the Band III and they're opening for Backstreet Boys..OH WOW...how cool **cough**  Since it's commercial we flip to Simpsons.  I want Pearls Before Swine comic book!!  Tooty the gingerbread man lol and the Fruit club.  Yeah, good times..well, band one sucks lol..band two better do better!!! okay well, bye

JOURNAL #131

[:mood:]

How do you know when I guy wants to kiss you? J/W..I was talking to Sherille about it.  Man I miss you at school Sherille sucks you had to move..but that's life.  Glad your doing okay at your new school and all even though it's been 2 years lol..yeah I'ma little late lol.